confessions...

i'm bad at linking and my laptop recently died, but i'm doing the confessional friday that Leslie @ A Blonde Ambition does so well...

so.

1. yet ANOTHER friend is having baby #2 and it stings just a bit more each time. OF COURSE i'm happy for each of them, but it's like being a senior in high school and not graduating with the rest of your class. like, being held back. now, obviously, it's not *exactly* the same, but today that's how i feel. i feel like NO one else has to spend thousands of dollars just to have a little 'ole baby. i KNOW that's not true, but i am the infertile in a sea of fertile myrtles. "be thankful for max!!!" - OF COURSE i'm thankful for my bubba; this feeling of wanting him to be a big brother does not diminish in ANY way the love i have for my son.

2. every day this week after we have dinner and the three of us are playing, max says. "teecee!" which is code for "Tracy". his nanny. and sure, sure, it's a new word; he likes going to her house; he has fun there; they learn and play... but i HATE HATE HATE that i feel like he'd rather be with her. SURE, he doesn't, but mom-guilt is a nasty drug, dude. luckily, there's only 24 days of school left and i can spend all summer with him. ...and then come august i'll be THROWING him at tracy and RUNNING to school. haha, i keeed, i keeed!!! ;)

3. i am a lactose-intolerant person addicted to ice cream. this is bad for several reasons. not the least of which is that I AM ADDICTED TO ICE CREAM.

4. in related news: i had cereal for dinner almost every night this week (*don't judge - my kid eats like a king and after playing, dinner, more playing, bath, and bed, i'm just TOO TIRED!) and this has made me feel like i'm being stabbed in the stomach at 3 am every night. so back to the almond milk for me!

5. these are totally stupid confessions.

6. but no one ever reads this, so who cares?!?!

7. 2nd annual MaxFest is seriously going to kick. ass. like, the pictures from this party are gonna get linked to pinterest; THAT'S how badass my decorations are. not that that's a "confession"... but i may have used all company (school) supplies to make banners, signs, and favor tags and then laminated said items. THAT'S a confession. i trust ya'll won't tell the principal.

8. i have been married for 5&1/2 years and i still LOVE wedding dress shows. i dvr them and everything. i think this stems from the trauma of HATING my wedding dress all of a sudden 2 weeks before my wedding. yes. that happened. LOVED it when i bought it. was the one i wanted and i tried it on and bought it right there. no shopping around. no trying on OTHER DRESSES. still haunts me. my veil was my FAVORITE though. my mom made it and it had 2 layers; one cathedral length and one elbow and both were scalloped-edge with swarovski crystal danglies. so there's that. oh - and my shoes were insane. blue peeptoe satin with a diamond buckle. LOVE. BUT, there's still dress-regret.



so yeah. totally random and oddly-combined, but there they are.