ugggg.

i have had a massive headache for 24 straight hours. i've had one come on every night for last 4 or so days, but usually, i just go to sleep and it goes away.

not this time.

holy crap, my eyeballs feel like they're trying to bust out of my head. maybe it's because my doctor raised my menopur from 2 to 3 each night. i feel exxxxxtra crazy lately.

but! hopefully, this all works out and the headaches won't be for nothing. so far, the tentative retrieval date is oct. 5th or 6th. ONE WEEK!!! holy crap.

nancy's 25!

i copied this from nancy. (i'd link to her blog, but that's something i have not yet figured out, so just go over there ------> and click on it.)

"25 Firsts"

1. Who was your first prom date?
aaron carlson. he called 'dibs' at our pre-dinner to everyone at our table. at a japanese restaurant. with strangers.

2. Do you still talk to your first love?
nope. we broke up; he started dating a friend; then married his ex; and confessed his love for me years later via myspace. weird.

3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
kahlua and pepsi. everything goes with coke, right? um, no.

4. What was your first job?
claire's boutique. i remember the manager was waaaaaay into her job. and SERIOUS about hairbows. we all had to wear a different one every shift.

5. What was your first car?
juanita; the puerto-rican-plaid '86 dodge 600 convertible with maroon pleather interior and lexus seat covers my dad gave me. i loooooooved that car.

6. Who was the first person to text you today?
lauren; i told her i almost jumped out of my moving vehicle (see other post) and she responded with 'don't do it, you don't have anyone to cover homeroom.' good advice.

7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning?
the topher. he snores and is a bear to wake up.

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
i forget her name, but she was a nun. said nun was also my brownies leader and she was mean.

9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane?
to new york for my grandpa's funeral.

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?
anne erismen. and no, i haven't spoken to her in probably 20 years.

11. Where was your first sleepover?
sara sansone's. she was a brat.

12. Who was the first person you talked to today?
chris.

13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time?
my friend, chantel's when i was 20. we wore such cheesy dresses because none of us knew what weddings were about yet.

14. What was the first thing you did this morning?
washed my face, did my hair, gave myself a shot. woohoo!

15. What was the first concert you went to?
live. they were really good as i recall.

16. First tattoo?
a lame chinese character that i later had covered up with a solid pink star.

17. First piercing?
ears.

18. First foreign country you went to?
mexico for our honeymoon. only venture out of the u.s. so far.

19. First movie you remember seeing?
et. i wanted to be gertie.

20. What state did you first live in?
ohio

21. Who was your first room mate?
ruby jiminez. she was gross.

22. When was your first detention?
one and only; the day of powder puff because my friend and i forged a hall pass. we were soooo bad. :)

23. (samcy didn't have a #23 and neither do i!)

24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance?
french.

25. Who will be the next person to post this?
no idea!

oh geez.

i had my first firemonster meltdown this morning on my way to work. my seatbelt kept locking and i couldn't pull it around. thank god i had my windows shut. i was screaming bloody murder and sweating and everything. all was over within 2 minutes.

cut to this evening, where the hubs and i are watching the end of the vma's on dvr. beyonce gave taylor 'her moment' and i'm crying like a little girl. crying over the vma's people.

i'm on drugs.

;)

bang!

today marks day numero uno of taking shots. just the lupron for now, but i anticipate firemonsteryness for the next few days while i'm still on the pill as well.

thumbs up for kicking down doors! (both metaphorically and literally. don't judge me - i was all hopped up on hormones and it made sense at the time.)

:)

on another note, i'm going to one of those 'paint your own pottery' places tonight!!! while it's not like sitting at a wheel and doing it yourself, this is the first time i've gotten creative with ceramics since college and i'm excited!!! maybe i'll post a pic (if i can figure out that whole mess) when i get it back from being fired.

twins.

my very good co-worker friend did ivf recently and had quite the experience with it. postponed transfer, tilted uterus, cervix not dilated.... etc. i genuinely felt horrible for her.

but, she had the transfer, went crazy for 2 weeks, got a BFP, and had her first sonogram today.

and as you may have guessed - twins! holy crap. i was so excited for her. i thought she was messing with me, but she was just in shock. ha!

so i was telling another friend and her response was similar to mine, but then she says, "i hope she didn't steal your baby juju! hahaha."

WHO THE FUCK SAYS THAT?!?! and why does it bother me so much???? now, all i can think of is that my very good friend, who is so super-supportive of me and my ventures, has now stolen my juju. i want to be as positive as humanly possible this go-round, but with stupidass people like this, how the eff can i???

i need positive shit around me. i hate yoga though. i need to center my chi or whatever. and i cannot use ice cream as the answer.
*sidenote* - even though i TOTALLY co-sign on ben and jerry renaming their classic 'hubby hubby'. i knew i loved them. see?! sending positive messages out into the universe via ice cream?! i need something like that.

but i digress. i start lupron tomorrow morning and i am going to think *happy* thoughts. so think some for me, too.

:)