dear max,

now that this feels real, i have some things i'd like to say to you.

your daddy and i wanted you for a very long time. you can't imagine how happy we were when we found out you were finally coming. your nickname will probably be 'pancakes' and you probably won't get it.

i feel you move all the time and i watch you do the worm in my tummy and while it's weird, and while you really make me have to pee, it is the awesomest feeling i've ever had. knowing you're growing and healthy all snuggled up in your little apartment makes me feel a joy i've never known.

i can't wait to see your little face. i have a feeling you're going to look like your daddy; cute little scrunchy cheeks, rosy lips... you are surely going to be the cutest baby on the planet.

i love you more everyday and i can't imagine what it's going to feel like to be your mommy. i'm nervous and scared and excited all in one. will i be what you need? will i know what to do? sometimes i feel super-prepared, sometimes i feel like i hae no idea what we got ourselves into. but no matter what, i'll make sure you know everyday how much i love you.

i love you more than you'll ever know, max. you're my everything and i feel beyond blessed that god chose me to be your mom.

love, mommy